|Long time, no read!
||[Jan. 11th, 2005|08:29 am]
|||||awake, and a bit foolish||]|
So, I find myself at my place of work at 8 in the morning, due to a misreading of my alarm clock. I thought I was going to be late, but find myself an hour early instead. I thought it was pretty funny. It's been a while since I've contributed here. No reasons I haven't posted in nearly a month. I have had a lot of time to think on things. I haven't realized anything much I didn't already know, epiphany is hard to come by. I did get to see quite a bit of snow, even though my area didn't get much at all (glad I went to Bellingham), and was reminded why accumulation is bad for the paycheck. I was gifted a DVD burner, and boy am I glad. And so is my HDD. I did have a small revelation about myself, but that will wait for another entry. Had some drama around the beginning of the year, but that, it seems, has worked itself out, albeit not the way I would have liked. I did satisfy one life goal however - I have now seen every single episode of OZ, all 52 hours worth. If you have not seen that show, correct that now.
As you can see, I was mostly just wasting time, feeling sorry for myself, and generally doing nothing worth doing. I've mentioned it before, but I have this tendancy to shut down and just wallow in self pity every few months. Sometimes it's just for a day, sometimes longer. It's caused me to lose jobs or come very close. One of my many demons I guess.
Anyway, this is not trying to create and excuse or justify my behavior lately. Just explaining my absence I guess. I have been keeping up with other's journals, and just kind of ignoring my own. Actually, a good reflection of my attitude lately, looking everywhere but at myself. Anyway, I'll be posting again soon, I did have one thought I found interesting enough to write down (one of those moments at 3.30 in the morning where you just HAVE to get down whatever half coherent thought just crossed your mind), and I want to share it, as it's kind of interesting. But for now I'm at work, and need to get back to it. Until then.